The results....

Had our very first appointment with Dr. J on Thursday....yay and oh no!! Yay I think Dr J is awesome!!! And oh no for the my results!
Okay so first things first....my results as follows:
AMH: 0.26 (VERY BAD) Please note I'm 30, no 80!
FSH: 14 (VERY BAD)
HSG: Damaged all over the place -ovary, tube, uterus...bla,bla,bla
Endo: Most prob back in full force.
Hubby's SA: GREAT!! Doc says he has about 3 healthy sperms for every woman wanting to get pregnant in South-Africa...LOL! (Sorry girls, this one is mine!!)
So, the POA is to do another lap, so far scheduled for the 29th of Sept, then we start with our very first IVF, I wish I could say first and last - but with my results it will be a miracle if we can just get some eggs to put back!
Yes, I was devasted, at first I couldn't even cry, it was just soooo much information that I didn't know what to do with...and then...took me about half an hour...the windows of heaven opened...I cried my eyes out!!! Poor hubby..what can the man say...LOL
So after all the crying and thinking and thinking and thinking.........here's where I'm at. This is what I've got, nothing I did caused it - NOT my fault, nothing I can personally do to change what I have, so deal with it and work with what you've got sista! I can only give it my best shot, and let me tell you this, I'm NOT GIVING UP - I WANT MY BABY!!!
So....I'm holding onto all my promises that God gave me, to the fact that He is good all the time! That what He's done for others, He'll do for me! Does my situation call for a miracle...hell yes - then I'm in the right place at the right time for God to do what He loves doing!
Yes, I'm scared and yes I'm excited....but this is my journey and I have to believe that sooner or later I will hold my baby in my arms!