Sunday, December 6, 2009

Fear...

I have never been this scared in my life....

I know the answers, I know that whatever will be will be, I know that this is not in my hands, but in the hands of God. I know that whatever Friday will bring I will have to handle. I know that whatever the outcome I will get through it....

BUT, I just feel so completely out of control, and I DON'T want to deal with it if it's negative, I don't want to go through that whole ordeal, I want this baby!!!

Lord, you know my fears, you know everything about me, and I want to believe that this time You chose to bless me, this time I will have what I've asked from You so, so many times, for so many years. I want to believe that I had nothing to do with this pregnancy, but that this is the work of Your hand. I want to believe that You blew life into this little bean, and everything is right on track and that I will see a small glimpse of Your wonder with Friday's scan. Please let this be my turn, please let me for the first time in almost 7years see a heartbeat, and in a few months time, hold my baby in my arms!
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  1. AnonymousDecember 6, 2009 at 5:26 AM

    Lieftallige Liv,
    Dit is een zeer edel, schoon, krachtig persoonlijk gebed. Blijf moedig en vertrouwend op de heilige Schepper. Hij is Barmhartig en verhoort het gebed van degenen die hun vertrouwen in Hem. Ik voel met je mee, ben je mede indachtig in mijn gebeden.
    “Hoor onze stem, Eeuwige onze God, barmhartige Vader, spaar ons en ontferm U over ons en neem ons gebed in barmhartigheid en welgevallen aan, want Gij zijt een God, die gebeden en smekingen hoort, en doe ons niet van Uw aangezicht, onze Koning, ledig terugkeren. Wees ons genadig en antwoord ons en hoor ons gebed, want Gij hoort het gebed uit iedere mond; “ Ik raad je aan om in deze geest dagelijks Psalm 34 te reciteren. Zo je wilt, kan ik je de Engelstalige versie van bovenstaand gebed sturen. Sterkte en vertrouwen! Weldra, in enkele maanden, een lieve krachtige gezonde baby in je armen!
    Kusje.Heel veel liefs,
    Nadja
    <3<3<3

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  2. CstelleDecember 11, 2009 at 8:59 AM

    Good luck vir jou scan!!!!!

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