My very first post...

Wow.....I actually did it! Today is my very first post.. Well done Liv...Don't know if I'll actually be a very good blogger, not always in the "mood" after work to write down my thoughts....but we'll see.

Today...well today was a difficult day for me, hubby's been away since Monday and only coming back 2morow. It's hard being alone, it's like negative ugly thoughts are eating away my flesh! JA, I know you can call me "DRAMA QUEEN".
Today it feels like I just CAN'T move on with my life...Today my haert is sore, cause I remember, I remember the rejection, I remember the shame, I remember the intense loneliness and I wonder if a person can really truly heal? Does it get better, yes, for me so far much better, but will it ever be completely healed? I'm sad cause I will NEVER be that person I used to be, life happened I guess....

Lets see if this writing "thing" helps me along my journey. Soon I will have the "balls" to write down all the things that I'm so very very ashamed off.....I just don't trust this new thing YET...o, and this is life lesson # 101, TRUST is not something you get for free, you gotta earn it!

So that's me for now....oor en uit.