SO FAR.....

And so the IVF journey begins.........
Yesterday I had day 2 bloods done, and today day 3 bloods - let me just say this for the record, the same tests I've done a million times. Anyhow, the first at VL and I guess I would much more prefer them to double check everything before starting the actual procedure. So today I made my first appointment, I will be seeing Dr J on Thursday, where I will be doing my very first HSG, and hubby his 4th sperm sample...shame, poor man, or shall I rather say - poor me!
Financially we know this so far: Bloods for day 2 & 3 (his & hers) - don't know yet? (hopefully medical aid will cover). Consultation at VL @ R980. HSG @ R1400. Hubby's "hand job" @ R550 and that's that so far.......
Okay, let's see....prep for IVF - Staminogrow, Follic acid, Omega 3,6,9. Healthy eating, cutting out as much carbs and sugar as possible. Acupunture from next week, mainly to reduce my stress levels.....I'm not good in that department!

I will definately not get an award on writing, this looks more than a telegram than a post....haha. Well mainly it's for me to look back and remember exactly how, when and who. After all, this is part of my journey, and hopefully soon, very soon I will write about my pregnancy, birth and my little angel /s!!

Then last but not least........today I'm excited. My husband is a rock and I love the way he is interested in every little TTC detail, how he asks questions about the IVF. I love the way he comforts me and how he wants to be involved and be part of every bit of this! I love the way he speaks about our future children and love the feeling of not being alone!!!

PMS & month-end!!!

They do NOT go together ya'all!!! This is the 2nd month in a row that the craziest time at work is gift wrapped with PMS!!! Nasty!
The good news is that I'm doing my blood tests 2morow (AGAIN)and Monday I have to make my very first appointment with Vitalab. I will be seeing Dr J and on the same day do a HSG, so ALL-IN-ONE! We are actually starting with our first IVF...the actual plan was to do the procedure in November, but I've taken some very good advice from friends who's been there, done that -and it's not always something you just jump in at and do - it can take months from your first visit. I have endo, so will probably have to get rid of that first, there goes one month, and because I have a low egg reserve will most prob be put on birth controll for a month....
So we're starting now, I just really don't want another year to go by without doing IVF!
Okay, so at this stage I'm excited and very nervous, I'm realistic and know that so many things can go wrong, I know that even if everthing goes right it can still be a BFN! BUT I also know that I've got a very good chance of being pregnant by the end of the year!!!
So cheers to that!

My very first post...

Wow.....I actually did it! Today is my very first post.. Well done Liv...Don't know if I'll actually be a very good blogger, not always in the "mood" after work to write down my thoughts....but we'll see.

Today...well today was a difficult day for me, hubby's been away since Monday and only coming back 2morow. It's hard being alone, it's like negative ugly thoughts are eating away my flesh! JA, I know you can call me "DRAMA QUEEN".
Today it feels like I just CAN'T move on with my life...Today my haert is sore, cause I remember, I remember the rejection, I remember the shame, I remember the intense loneliness and I wonder if a person can really truly heal? Does it get better, yes, for me so far much better, but will it ever be completely healed? I'm sad cause I will NEVER be that person I used to be, life happened I guess....

Lets see if this writing "thing" helps me along my journey. Soon I will have the "balls" to write down all the things that I'm so very very ashamed off.....I just don't trust this new thing YET...o, and this is life lesson # 101, TRUST is not something you get for free, you gotta earn it!

So that's me for now....oor en uit.